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“Kill the optimist!” the cry surged forward, breaking through, crossing those ahead moments before the wave of bodies crushed them forward, forcing them, without a moment for a thought of choice, into the melee. Too late to convince otherwise, too far along to hope for the prospect of an amendment in the blood lust for retribution, even if there was reason for the act.
“I can’t see! I want to watch!” a young boy’s cry rang out… such a young, twisted antagonist. Even they had been turned against the fact that the intention was to awaken hope, birth a dream amongst them. And yet they still turned away, the shadows of my aggressors returning to me now.
“Don’t worry… you will have your pleasure soon enough,” I mumble through my swollen lips, my now crooked teeth. It was enough for them to follow through with their determination, let alone make it yet harsher on myself. The platform began to elevate, my rough teeth sinking deep into my tongue. No matter, soon it won’t be relevant, blood trickling through darkish facial hair, over shrunken facial features.
“Do you not know…?” rope burns my hands, feet, my scarlet neck.
“If you’ll not have me then take it, satisfy your determination of correctness. In a moment I will leave you. The ravens are calling; can you hear them? Their dark wings breaking through the remains of the dawn’s grey fog. They will be here soon, and you, you can have your life, your righteousness. And I… I will abscond your presence, your stifling companionship and encounter my peace. Take my life, do as you please, your hope flies with the wind, on the dark wings of the ravens.

Dusk falls… the sound of wings in the fog… hope no more…

Hope no more…
*jr

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the most beautiful of times
were ones that i shared with you
we've gone on
to the world
and all i remember
is the warmth of that smile
and the darkness on my face
when i left you
*jr

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can you show me the way
today
as i walk down the road
to freedom
don't make me walk alone
'cos i'd miss you
*jr

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shadows fall on a world i know
as the light lowers to the sea
recreating the land i love
the land i anticipate each day
i'm under the harsh lights
do you know what beauty feels like
when you're without it for but a moment each day
i wish you were here always
and yet
as you fall to the sea
i wonder if i'd still appreciate you
if you didn't cast yourself
into the deep
and surrender us to the night
to the dark grasps of the ever present shadows
each day
i love you for your abandonment
*jr 07.26.03

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would you believe me
if i told you i am here
at the end of the day
with the candle
which lights the world
about to be silenced into darkness
by the cool wind that rises
from the south
and am thinking of you
wishing you were here
near the water swirling around my feet
would you believe me
if i told you
i wish you were here
as darkness falls over the sea
and the waves crash around me
cos if i stumble
and fall on the rocks
who would take my hand
and show me the way home
would you believe me
if i told you
i wanted you to rescue me
cos i'd rather be hurt and rescued
than go on alone
without you
would you believe me
*jr 07.26.03